Positive

I am trying to stay positive these days, and not just about pregnancy. There are so many things going on and I really don't know what to do, how to handle things. I try to push things aside, but that usually makes things worse. I feel like I'm being judged anytime I complain about being pregnant. I love the end result of pregnancy, but do not enjoy the whole process. It is not easy for me. Last night, I had a breakdown. I just couldn't take the braxton hicks, and then Jamie didn't want to go to bed. He climbed out of bed and proceeded to come downstairs. I think my crying made things worse for him. I called Eric and had him come home from work for a bit just so he could sit with him and put him back to bed. I'm so thankful that his job allows him to do that and that he only works a few miles from home. It kind of irratates me when others talk about how fun their pregnancies are....but then I try to forget about it because it could be worse...I am very thankful that I am able to have children. It really sucks to feel sick all the time, wondering when you are going to throw up, what foods will get you that day. I hate that I don't have much energy these days to play with my little man. I don't even feel like cleaning my house! I know it has to be done, and it is getting there....slowly! People have been on my mind lately....friends, family, why some act the way they do. How much do you try with people before giving up? Like I said, I'm trying to be positive. Things have to get better, right?! It does help to get my feelings out on here...even if it might tick some people off! I plan on posting tomorrow, but with a lighter post, happier! I have a doctor's appoitment in the morning and then we are spending some time in the pool....90 plus weather is not fun! Oh, funny, random fact. We went to see some fireworks on Saturday night and when we got home, my feet were so swollen! My shoes weren't tight and I was sitting most of the time. My socks had circle designs on them and those designs were then on the tops of my feet! Oh, the joys :)