Complaints

Ok, beware....I'm going to complain about some things in this post!

I love that we are bring another baby into this world, but oh my word!  This time around is super hard.  Being pregnant is not easy or fun for me.  I don't mean to offend anyone....those who love being pregnant!  I am very lucky that I can have children, I know that.  I just want the throwing up to stop!  It is never the same thing that causes it.  I never got sick with Jamie and only got sick a few times with Oliver....but I felt sick all the time for about 4/5 months.  I'm pretty sure I have gotten sick more than I ever did with Oliver.  I hate feeling like this.  I want to play with my boys, go in my kitchen without wanting to throw, heck, just be able to sit without feeling gross.  The thing with the kitchen....I smell something that nobody else smells!  It smells nasty and smells are not treating me well this time around.  I really wish that I could be one of those ladies that just enjoys being pregnant and can do anything.  After the 4th or 5th month, I usually get better.  I missed Sunday lunch yesterday because I got sick in the morning and just felt horrible all day.  I layed in bed the entire day.  Now today, I still feel like crap.  I still feel like I could throw up all over the place, no matter what I eat.  I know I am getting dehydrated, but drinking makes me feel gross.  I have a full water bottle next to me and I am making myself drink.  I can barely sit or walk right now without feeling like I could fall over.  I know, I know, stop your complaining.  You should be happy that you are able to have kids.  I just wish that I didn't have to feel this gross. 

Then I think about the boys and how happy they are for a new baby, especially Jamie.  He wants a sister!  He rubs my tummy and says he waved to the baby.  He likes to tell me how my belly is getting bigger. 

It is sometimes hard to be happy when not everyone around you is happy.  When someone tells you to your face that you are stupid and an idiot for getting pregnant....makes things difficult.  Then you have people who act differently around you.  I know that some days my kids drive me crazy and I want to scream, but what parent doesn't have that!?  I have one child that is either ADD or ADHD and another who has Sensory Processing Disorder.  This is no excuse or a pity card, but it makes things a little harder.  Luckily, we have changed Jamie's diet around and are getting help with Oliver and things are getting better.  But, that is no reason to not have any more kids.  I want more kids....even though I feel like crap! 

Ok, I got my complaining out and I'm sorry if I offended anyone.  I feel better getting it out there.