Update

I thought I should just write a new post about the past few days instead of adding it to the one I just posted.  It would help if I would actually finish a post the day I started it! 

The nurse finally called me back Wednesday night and pretty much told me the same thing I heard on Monday!  I was so confused and upset.  Luckily, I saw our doctor that night (he happens to go to our church) and asked about switching Oliver's asthma medicine.  He was said that was a good idea and was upset with his nurses.  He said that the message he got was pretty much the same thing he got on Monday.....you have got to be kidding me!  I told him I was sorry for bugging him at church and he told me not to worry about it.  We need to get his cough under control and he doesn't mind.  I don't really feel like his cough is any better, maybe at times, but he still wakes up once or twice at night coughing super hard and needs a breating treatment.  He was outside playing today and was coughing from that.  I will give it another week though because the Zantac needs two weeks to fully kick in.  He is still sleeping a lot.  I know he much be behind on sleep, but it just seems a little much.  He slept til 10 yesterday and still went down for a nap at 3.  Today, he slept til a little after 10:30, went down for a nap around 3 and we had to wake him up for supper and he was still tired.  I just feel bad for him and wish that I could get him feeling better.  We had Wendy's for supper the other night (so healthy, I know!) and Oliver had nuggets and fries.  He ate all four of the nuggets and most of the fries....he has never eaten all of the nuggets, ever!  I'm hoping that the Zantac is helping with things.  We've noticed that he doesn't make his "hurt" face when he swallows as much as before and just the fact that he has been eating more!  I have a lot of questions for his feeding therapist tomorrow!  Jamie had his hearing tested and has super hearing.  I am happy about that, but we still don't have an answer about the super sensitivity to sound.  But, at least we don't have to deal with any hearing issues.  We got another project done on the house yesterday.  We had a screened in porch and it was nice, but the screens were old and it was getting to the point where we either took them down or replaced them.  It would not have been cheap to replace them.  We took them down and put up a railing.  My friend's husband came over and helped Eric get it done.  It looks so nice!  I started decorating it today for Christmas :)  I'm making some progress on getting the house clean.  I haven't done a ton, but I've done some things....haha!  The kitchen is the big deal.  It seems like that darn room can never stay clean.  I hope to get more done in there tomorrow, but it is Monday and not much else gets done on Mondays after all the running around we do.  I will get my butt in there and get something done though.  I need it clean before Thanksgiving....so I can mess it up again!  I am very thankful to be feeling a little better and by a little, I mean just that.  I have not thrown up in about 2 weeks, but I feel sick all day, everyday.....which I will take over the being sick!  Fighting that urge to throw up gets tricky when you are trying to clean.  I'm trying to figure out a system that works.  In the living room, I sit a lot and crawl around when I clean.  That may sound a bit silly, but that way I don't bend over a lot and that helps.  If I can only clean for 10 minutes and then need a break for a bit, that is ok!  I have some bad news.....our kitty passed away :(  He was fine one day and the next, not so much.  He was living in his own room because Oliver is terrified of cats.  My sister was going to take the cat because we really needed that room he was in.  Now, I will get my playroom before Christmas.  I am very excited to get my living room and dining room back.  The toys will have their special place, a place that has a door and I can close it and it won't affect the rest of the house!  Alright, time to head to my comfy bed :)

One of Those Days

Actually, it has been one of those weeks.  I have learned that on Mondays, nothing will get done in the house.  I have a chiropractor appt, then there is gymnastics, and then there is feeding therapy.  We get home and it is nap time....for everyone!  I try to get things done the other days.  But this week, this week has been bad.  We have had so many appointments this week and errands, that it just completely wears me out.  I had a mini breakdown in the bathtub last night because I felt horrible that things weren't done.  I loaded the dishwasher and ran that, but come on!  I was so exhausted, I could have gone to bed at 6!  Tonight, I have Fireflies, so I'm not doing much right now.  My goal is to get this house clean before Thanksgiving!  I am actually making my first Thanksgiving dinner this year!  I bought a 10 pound turkey today for only $5.77!  Our local grocery store has this card for their store that you can earn points from and get special deals on things.  So, my turkey was only .58 a pound!  I'm even going to attempt homemade stuffing.  My dad makes it every year and I love it.  It was my grandma's recipe.  I'm getting excited for this meal, but my house can't be a mess!  We are still dealing with Oliver's cough.  He was given a prescription last week that was suppose to take care of the cough but it didn't help.  I called on Monday and now he is on Zantac.  I was confused about this, but did some research and found the reflux can trigger asthma symptoms.  Oliver had reflux as a baby and was on medicine for a while.  I was told to wait at least 2 weeks for the Zantac to really kick in and get things under control.  I called back today and asked if there is something else we can do for the cough in the mean time.  His cough seems to be a bit worse at times.  He has been getting breathing treatments for 3 weeks now and I don't think the medicine in that is meant to be taken for that long.  He had a treatment before bed last night, woke up twice, and needed another treatment.  He has been so tired for about a week now because he hasn't been sleeping well.  I understand that the medicine needs time to work, but this cough is just crazy.  They did say that if this medicine doesn't help, then he needs to see a specialist.  There are 3 different ones he could see, so I'm not sure which it would be.  I'm kind of wondering though that if he is having reflux again, if that could be related to him being such a picky eater.  This raises so many more questions now.  I'm thinking I would like him to see a GI specialist to see if these are related.  I'm still waiting to hear back from the office.  I feel like the annoying mom who calls over every little thing.  I just think about all the possible appointments we could have now, all the tests he may need.  This little man has already been through so much.  Maybe cleaning my house will get my mind off of things....ha!  I also called the ENT today to get Jamie in to have his hearing tested and they got him in tomorrow morning!  He will have a hearing test and then see the doctor.  If his ears are fine, then he may have a sensory thing going on with his ears! 

Some Updates

**I started this the other week!  Sorry for the delay :)

How about some updates on some handsome little boys!?

Oliver: He is doing wonderful!  His therapy is working wonders.  I think we started in July and he like a new kid.  He went from grunts and a few words, some of which were only parts of the word, to tons, and tons of words and four and five word sentences!  My mom said he is talking so much more than he was at the end of August when we were there.  I have people tell me all the time how much of a difference they see.  Eric's mom can't get over it when he talks because people really haven't heard his voice much before!  His balance is getting better.  We are still working on the water issue, but there have been improvements in that area also.  He still won't take a bath though.  He will play with the water table at therapy.  He won't stick his hands in and splash around, but he will take the shovel and try to get the balls out.  Last week, he did stick his finger in the water a couple of times!  We always have to emphasize that getting wet is ok or getting something else wet is ok, you can just dry it off or shake it off.  He has one more appointment next week and then his therapist said to give him some time off and see how he does.  She is very happy with all the progress he has made.  He is in feeding therapy and will continue that for a while yet.  He will eat some foods during therapy that he normally doesn't, but he gets to see a wind up toy and he loves those!  He will also need a swallow test done.  This is basically a low grade x-ray video of him eating.  He makes this face, like it hurts or is tough to swallow on almost anything he eats.  I'm hoping that this test shows something, nothing horrible of course, but just something to help us out.  He also all of sudden knows a ton of colors.  He will find balls or toys and tell me the color!  If he gets it wrong, I just tell him to look again and will ask the color again...he gets it then!  He has been saying opposites also.  He will stand up and say "up", then sit down and say "down."  He was riding a toy the other day and put part of it under the table and he said "in" then backed out and said "out."  I'm so happy that we were able to find him help and his therapist is awesome!

Jamie:  He is 4 years old and I can't believe that!  He is in preschool three days a week and is loving it.  He has a few kids in his class that can be challenging at times, but he is handling it like a pro.  I just wish he was that good when he is home!  The past two weeks have been a struggle with him.  We are being really careful with his diet, so I know it isn't that.  I am going to take him to the chiropractor and get him adjusted. I honestly think that has something to do with it.  He has also started Fireflies at church.  I know he likes it, but he doesn't really do any of the singing...which is fine...but I think he gets nervous in front of people. He has also been doing gymnastics for about a month.  He has a lot of fun with that and is starting to feel more comfortable doing things.  Last week he finally jumped from the board into a pit of foam.  I think the height freaked him out a little, but he got his courage up and did it!  He is very excited to be getting a new brother or sister.  He likes to sit by me and lay on my belly.  He will rub and say hi.  He remembers when I was pregnant with Oliver.  He seems to be excited about a lot of things lately.  He sees toys and wants everything!  I told him that he can't get any toys at the store right now, otherwise Santa will have nothing to get for him.  Telling him that really seemed to help.  He doesn't beg!  He does have a mighty long list for Santa so now we have to talk about how he won't get everything that he wants.  He is still all about superheros.  He was Thor for Halloween :)  A new love of his is the Chronicles of Narnia.  Eric has been telling him the stories at night before bed.  I didn't even know this.  One day, we caught the last part of the first movie on TV and Jamie knew the names of the people and the lion!  So far, we have watched the first two movies and need to do the third.  He talks a lot....a lot...during the movie but still manages to pay attention.  Eric is trying to find his book so he can actually read the stories to him.

New Baby:  I may only be 13 weeks, but this baby is a mover!  Call me crazy, but I first started feeling movements a couple of weeks ago.  It wasn't all the time, but it was definitely baby. 

I know these posts are boring without pictures.  I need to put a lot on the computer and hopefully I will get that done this week!

A New Day

Ok, today is a new day.  I am still mad, stressed, all of the above!  But, it is a new day.  I got an awesome comment on yesterday's post.  She said to write down what I did during the day and not make a list of things that need to be done and not to care about everything else.  Great idea, right!?  So, here goes.  Today, I had an appointment with the chiropractor, came home for about 10 minutes and then left for gymnastics.  Got home from that and was home for about 15 minutes and then it was off to Oliver's therapy.  Got home, put the boys down for naps, picked up some of living room, although there are still some things that need to be put away but I was trying not to throw up pretty much the whole time.  I'm trying to figure out what to do for supper tonight.  I have pretty much no groceries in the house.  We ran out of milk this morning.  I have eggs, but Oliver won't eat those.  I found some pork chops, but we have been having those a lot lately because they are easy.  After nap, we will probably have to run to the store quick for milk and bread.  We have a store a few minutes down the road, but it is more expensive than going to Meijer.  I might stop at Jimmy Johns and get their super yummy number 13 veggie sandwhich!  Yeah, I'm suppose to be gluten free, but only certain things sound good right now and those sandwhiches seem to be what my stomach needs.  I really need to feel better soon so I can get back on my gluten free stuff.  My knees are killing me right now!  I have an update started on the boys that I hope to finish and post soon.  Now, time to relax a little bit more before the boys wake up :)

Rant

I will apologize now, but I need to rant.  I really, really hate that my house is a disaster right now, I hate that I don't have any help, I hate that I feel so alone, it bothers the crap out of me that I am so sick and can't clean my house like I want to, I hate that I feel like because I am the mom/wife that it is my job to do everything, I hate crying all the time.  I wish that my stomach didn't hurt whenever I bent over or that bending over wouldn't make me throw up.  Why am I being such a baby?  Why can't I do this??  Why can't someone actually pick-up around the house.  I feel like I have to put myself last, as long as everyone else is happy.  We need groceries, but when it is nap time and only me here, that isn't going to happen.  I want to snap my fingers and have my house clean, laundry done and put away, dishes done.  Some people just don't understand how awful I feel.  Being pregnant is one of those funny things, you never know how you are going to feel.  For me, it keeps getting worse.  Oh knows, maybe I am being a big wimp and should just suck it up, take care of everything and not worry about anything else.  One more thing.  Why is it so hard to throw something away when you are done?!  For example, mac and cheese is made, why must the box and the cheese bag stay on the counter!?  Ok, I think I am done now :)

Reality

Ok, let's be real here.  Being pregnant is not as glamorous as portrayed in movies!  Some of us feel like crap all day, have weird pains everywhere, there are potty issues, all the tiredness, the throwing up...which is especially fun when it is something different every time, the crazy heartburn, then there are the boobs!  Oh my word!  Then, if you have kids, you need to chase them around, try to make meals, try to clean the house and remember or even feel like taking a shower that day.  I really like when my little one decides to wake up at 7 and then proceed to wake up his brother!  My boys usually sleep til at least 9.  My house looks like a tornado went through it.  A few weeks ago, I watched the movie, What to Expect When You Are Expecting.....love it!  There is one woman who just has the "prefect" pregnancy and it really ticks off another lady who is having a miserable time.  The second lady talked about how things can suck and not be fun and so many ladies loved it.  I loved how that movie had so many real things in it.  We may be absolutely miserable, but yet we keep having more.  Funny how that works!  I really do enjoy that little bundle I get in the end.  Holding that baby, looking in their eyes, snuggling, it all makes up for the horrible 9 months I had :) 

I heard the little one's heartbeat today!  After hearing that, everything seems real.  Those first weeks, it is hard to believe it is true, but that heartbeat, that changes all. 

Can You Repeat That, Please?!

I went to see my doctor last week.  I still have my normal first baby appointment for next week, but I have been feeling so off.  I have been feeling pretty sick, but I know that will disappear soon....hopefully :)  On top of the sick feeling and actually getting sick, I have been extremely tired.  I can get 8-9 hours of sleep at night, but an hour after I get up, I am ready for a nap.  I have been having lots of belly pain also.  My doctor said to get some more fiber in my diet...for obvious reasons :)  Getting all the fiber you need while being gluten free is not always the easiest.  I need more water (which I think it just gross!).  When they do my blood work, they will also check my thyroid, just to make sure.  Then she had me lay down so she could feel my belly.  When she pushed on the top of my belly, under my ribs, she asked if it hurt.  I told her it did.  Now we have to keep an eye on that pain because she said it could be my gallbladder and if it stays like that, it would have to come out before the baby is born.  Seriously?!  I don't want that.  After I got home, I realized that my belly hurts there a lot, I just thought it was normal pains.  She also said to get back to my gluten free diet.  My system could be on an overload.  I am hoping that in a couple of weeks, the belly pain goes away.  I also got some new medicine for my lovely morning sickness.  I got some Zofran.  I thought it would be my new best friend, but now, it doesn't seem to do anything :(  I am only 9 weeks, I shouldn't be having all these issues...haha!  I am hoping it ends soon.  We took Jamie to gymnastics this morning, then lunch (gotta love coupons), and then Target quick.  I really overdid it today.  I feel like poo right now!  I have supper in the oven and I'm hoping to feel at least a little better after I eat.  I also have this 4 year old laying next to me right now talking nonstop!  He has not been a very good  boy the past couple of days.  All of that does not help my situation at all.  I noticed that when I get mad and all worked up, things hurt worse....keep it cool mama!  Well, time to finish up supper and get the little one up from nap....something the older one refused to take today :)